Who Am I?
I don’t know who I am.
Torn between the people that I should be.
Unclear on where I want to be heading.
Yet I know I shouldn’t be here.
I sit here trying to remember.
Who I was when it all began.
Instead what flashes in memory.
Are different times and different songs.
I know I have potential
I know I have to be somebody
Its the who that eludes me
In my search for immortality
Obsessed with being the best
Always aiming to please
Doing a million things at once
Trying to find inner peace
Thought it would get better with time
That my confusion would recede
Instead the fire within burns fiercer
As does my desire to exceed
I was such a good kid
I guess I forever will be
Yet something tells me that
the person you know ain’t me
Inji
(sometime in 2005)
About the blog:
This is basically the manifestation of my already highly inflated ego and my desire to vent. Recently I’ve been cramped with work, studies, side business and million other small things that I’ve become crowded in the head. This state of sleep deprivation, exhaustion and confusion often brings out the artist in me. This blog will mainly be a talent archive (self-tribute; arrogant.. I KNOW!!) as well as intermittent shout outs about wild happenings in our beloved Cairo.
Ramblings of the Disoriented Mind 
that’s so expressive !! it’s like a channel to your soul, that we can see clearly how u think and feel about urself, we are all searching for that inner peace, i keep wondering is the person i am now is the one? or still to come? or the one i used to be? when will i settle, i think of tht so much too, sometimes i feel i wont reach an answer…time will prove:)
NSU – 4efer, 5210 – rulez
The mind wants an identity for the being
The being according to the mind is lost in the form.
The mind wants it because it is required for the mind to exist.
It wants the form to appear bigger than the being.
The mind is creating the torture
The heart is unable to bear the pain
It breaks out and that is this poetry
The heart’s truth is always beautiful.
The being is not at all disturbed by all these.
The being is bigger than the mind and it’s torture
The being is stronger than the heart and it’s poem
So the being is silent
Just BE
Love
Josho vishnu murcharya murray
Pinky: Thanks dear.
Josho: Nice poem, thanks for stopping by.
LOL., your current reading is out of this world :-))
Askandarani: You have no idea!!
lol, I do. it will catch up in Egypt in a couple of years.
every time I attempt to leave your page, something catches my eye and pulls me back…frankly, I’m looking for your name!…so I found “Who Am I?” instead…I went in hopping you had your name in this one…I love your poem…check your second line/first stanza (between)…I’m in a hurry, so I’ll try to make this my last comment…hoping I’ll find your page again…so salaam for now.
Askandarani: Yeah 2008 on commodities, nice to know I’m not alone in my mysery. I must admit though, the book is a fascinating read!
Amal: Awwww, thanks for the heads up about the typo, you’re too sweet. By all means comment all you like!
I tried so many times
To know whom you call you
But seldom did I attain
More than a spotted stain
With words you weave your way
With poems you write your path
But do they really draw
The true and naked lane?
You hide behind the rhymes
You cover yourself with nouns
Is it that cold inside
Are you through too much pain?
I met you the weirdest way
A face on a book you were
But soon I realised
That more of you remain
A message, a call, a mail
Is all I get from you
It’s not enough, I say
It’s too shallow, it’s plain
I want to see your eyes
As they sparkle away
This digital dream that floats
Does not portray who’s you
F: Not sure where to begin. Well you’re definately very talented. I like yours way better than I like mine. I have a tingling sensation.. I can’t help but wonder, the style is very familiar… should I take the words literally??
How is the style very familiar to you? You’d have to be inside me to get familiar with it…
Oscar Wilde said “He lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realise”… You are free to take the words literally and solve the case with a surgical change, or you can think of this as just poetic wishful thinking and do nothing about it…
You were such a good kid
That might be indeed true
But how do you know for sure
the person I know ain’t you?
Aside from words and games
Behind the pride and wins
Perceptions fail to paint
What’s good, what’s bad, what’s true
But wisdom says you should
Transcend what’s viewed and read
Look far beyond the face
Of things, my dear, I do
How was your night
Slept well, I say?
As mornings come
Does sleepiness stay?
Plain coffee or tea
Maybe caffeine free?
Bonsoir, bonne nuit
Bonjour, nice day
Ah, my royal insomniac
I pray thou art well
My sleep was pleasant
Flattered you could tell
Have a nice day too F 🙂 Wish you’d put this creative energy to blog entries!!!
wish i had the time.. you know how my schedule is.. that is, of course, if you know who i am 😉 and i just gave you 2 huge hints in this post.. or 3 even! let’s see how perceptive miss blogger is.. (4)
The style and atitude are too unique. If you’re not the man with the plan to take over the world armed by militant hamsters then I shall be shocked!!!
then shocked you shall be! you have no clue who i am! and i gave you 4 hints in the previous message! how odd! i am disappointed!
I stand my ground. I still believe that you are the corporate anarchist who’d give his kingdom for a couch. If you are not. Then you are in your right to be disappointed. Although in that case, I’m not so sure I would care.
tsk tsk tsk.. your attention to detail is disappointing.. and your carelessness makes me think twice about continuing what we started.. your problem is that you live 2 dissociated lives and see no link between them..
here’s a final hint-riddle for you:
final riddle today
initials of phrases stay
remember what comes first
as beginnings make words
so does this give it away?
🙂
LOL. While you’ve been generous with that hint oh wise one. I’m afraid it’s my turn to be dissappointed. You’ve got the wrong Juka 🙂 I know of no Firas!! Sorry that you’ve wasted so much time on the wrong blog!!
hmm.. so this is not yours? 😉 https://injis.wordpress.com/ramblings-of-the-disoriented-mind/ and your name is not Sina Hbous?
LOL. That explains things a great deal. No, I’m not Sina. My name is Inji (as the blog name indicates). I worked with Sina in Cairo for a couple of years. Story inspired by that time, lead character’s name given to her!! Sorry you got confused!!! Did you like the story tayeb???
i sure did.. thought that I was talking to Sina all along! how weird!
oddly, i don’t know who i know anymore.. should i know the girl i know but don’t know? or should i know the girl i know but don’t really know? 🙂
LOL. I guess in a way you psuedo-know the both of us!
i guess my post belonged here, so it was deleted from the other blog 🙂 good morning juka! (sounds like what these new BMW voice activated car navigation system would say when you get in the car!).. how is my pseudo-digital-talented-friend doing?
F: Contemplating whether or not I’m going to maintain this secluded piece of cyber space for much longer! Otherwise all is peachy. You?
all is spiffy and jiffy from my side.. why would anyone contempate such a hideous idea? islands are made to be secluded, visited only for peace of mind, contemplation and enjoyment.. seclusion is not a detriment, it’s a quality..
do you happen to have an email address? of course i am expecting the second thing that comes to your mind after reading this question, not the first 🙂
🙂
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