I have the emotional intelligence of an 8 year old. I grew up in an extremely competitive family. A GPA of 3.99 is not 4. The sky is one’s limit. One must always play to win. Play fair, but play to win.
Now, for the past month, I have managed to NOT win at most of the things I’ve tried. I am actually currently the proud owner of a string of losses.
I did not make it into McKinsey.
I did not win the MIT business plan competition (albeit having honestly tried).
I lost a deal to S&P (and yes I realize how huge they are but it doesn’t make me any less mad).
I lost a deal to Booz and Co.
Will not give excuses, will not say how angry I am at how unprofessional the clients are being.
Yet the truth is, I define myself by my accomplishments, I am what I’ve done.
Now this statue of wins is quickly being eaten into by the worms of defeat.
I can’t take it anymore.
Dear Lord, I want a WIN!
P.S. I’m gonna go find me a PS3 and win at something trivial in an attempt to patch up the ego.